I'm drifting.
What is “drift”? According to Gretchen Rubin, drift is the decision you make by not deciding, or by making a decision that unleashes consequences for which you don’t take responsibility.
There's a great quiz she has to see if you are drifting too.
https://gretchenrubin.com/2011/02/back-by-popular-demand-quz-are-you-drifting/
