It has been way too long since I've posted. Time has a way of getting away from me. I'll be honest - I'm on Facebook way too much! Just scrolling through other people's posts, posts from various groups I'm in, and gathering ideas that I love but never actually implement. It's a lot like Pinterest too - there are so many beautiful crafts and ideas there that other people have done but I don't, mainly because I'm too detail-oriented (everything has to be perfect to start something!). I struggle with the idea of mistakes in my work, whether it is actually work or something for myself. I can't just dive into something.
I feel like I have ADD...definitely not ADHD though. I'm not hyperactive. lol
I haven't been officially diagnosed with ADD but I feel like my attention span is lacking when I try to do any kind of projects, whether it is something like crochet or preparing for a Girl Scout meeting. For instance, I'll decide it's time to sit down and come up with the agenda for my next meeting. Well, I have to find my binder from the last meeting with all my notes. Maybe I brought it in from the car or maybe not. I look for it...then find other papers/notes/supplies that belong in that binder or with my PTA binder instead. I decide I need to put them away so that when I'm ready to tackle that task, it will be there. But where is that binder? Oh, that's still in the car. I go out to the car...and find it and other things that should be put away in that binder too. It's just like a scavenger hunt.
Yes, part of it is that I'm not completely organized. I am in my mind because I do know where everything is or at least I can remember when the last time I saw something was. I know where to go looking for that paper I might need. But my house, like my mind, is not an organized haven. I'm working on it though...very slowly.
This happens to me when I'm online too. I'll check my email and find something I need to take care of. I go hunting for the info I need to respond to the email or to send out the email I need to send. But then I find a link on that page to something that sounds very interesting - maybe that would be great to include in my original email! So I check it out...and before long, 30 minutes have passed that I've done nothing actually productive other than to find 3 more things I need to read/email/post about.
This is why I try to make lists for myself. I feel so much more organize and on track when I see a list of things I need to accomplish. The act of crossing something off my list is a great joy to me. Also, breaking a job down into steps is very helpful too. I tend to keep a task on my mental list for a long time if it is something I believe to be a complicated task. Then it just keeps growing in my mind. When I finally can't wait any longer and have to tackle it, it takes less time that I thought it would...and then I beat myself up over the procrastination.
Anyway, this post was an exercise in "Just Doing It". I actually tried to do a blog plan for this...I took about 10 minutes searching my computer for a template that I KNOW I downloaded sometime ago about planning blog posts. I finally got frustrated enough and realized that I'm just going to write whatever is in my mind. I just wanted to write something.
And now I'm done.
